Monday, September 02, 2013
Unbreak My Heart, Breaking Bad
It's breaking my heart. [SPOILERS]
I keep meaning to write up my Breaking Bad predictions. I've read everything Vince Gilligan has said about ending the show and how he thinks MASH had a great series ending because you got to see what you wanted, which was everyone going home. He says it will feel satisfying. So I'm clinging that like Radar clinging to his teddy bear.
But in Breaking Bad, teddy bears foreshadow doom and look like this:
From the start of the final 8 I've been completely surprised by everything. I haven't predicted anything even close to what is happening. I thought Walt would use the fact that he paid for Hank's therapy against Hank, but the fake confession blew me away. It's not even fun anymore to try and guess what will happen. I'm beyond that. I'm just trying to survive each episode. It's very stressful. I am sad that Walt has become so bad. He's had his moments where he seemed cool and you kind of rooted for him, like you root for Michael Corleone, but mostly I'm sad that he broke so bad and ruined everything he originally broke bad for. I guess that's the point.
But Jesse Pinkman? I can't take it if Walt kills him, even if it makes the most sense in terms of a Heisenberg move. Walt feels protective of Jesse, but Walt has crossed a lot of lines as Heisenberg slowly took over: Jane. Brock. Mike. You'd think he wouldn't mind killing Jesse. But, it was so horrible to see both Saul and Skyler suggest it. It is really hideous to see all of this unfold. Drugs are bad, guys. Never forget.
What it boils down to for me, though, is that Jesse Pinkman is the last piece of Walter White's soul. I don't want to see him give it up.
I know there's no shot at redemption for Walt. He's too far-gone. But couldn't he do something sacrificial for Jesse? I know Jesse is also a murderer. But he's the one we root for. It was sweet and kind of awful to see him being cared for by Hank and Marie in their house. It was awful because Hank is using him just like Walt uses Jesse. He doesn't care if Walt kills Jesse, if he can get it on film. Ugh. Too much sad feels.
The last thing Jesse says about Mr. White when Hank films him is, "He was my teacher." That's why Walt cares about Jesse. As his student, Walt is always proud of Jesse when he thinks of a good idea or does something right. Jesse has to come out on top. But I'm really afraid he won't.
If Walt kills Jesse, he's Voldemort. I don't love that. I'd like to see him struggle it out between his last little unbroken-bad bits until the end. But it could go the other way, with his complete transformation into Heisenberg. Or maybe killing Jesse will be the last, worst thing he does. If so, what a downer. I will feel horrible. It would be like Frodo just putting on the ring and getting married to a ringwraith.
I hope the ricin is for Walt and it ends with him killing himself. But I really don't know what will feel satisfying at this point.