This Is Probably too Personal

After not blogging for many years it was funny and reassuring to return here and see that amongst my most read posts of all time, Bad Dreams About Clogged Toilets is still on top. At one point I had added a widget to my blog to keep track of my most read posts. Geeze. I really become a computer programmer in order to blog. I also figured out how to see what common search terms were being used to find my blog. Imagine my surprise to see that "pantyhose all day stink" was a search term someone used who ended up at my blog.

I used to have a recurring dream about being in front of a crowd (usually a high school assembly) and having to go to the bathroom and having the only toilet available be just totally overflowing to the top and beyond with number two.

This dream has shifted. It's still the same idea, but now I'm usually (thank goodness) in a private place and the only available toilet is filled to the top and totally overflowing with number one. I don't know if the change is significant in terms of my psyche or whatever but it has definitely changed over time. I feel bad that so many people have come to my blog probably to find an interpretation of this dream and I don't really have much to offer. However, it's beautiful in its way that so many of us—at least 27,000 people—want to know. 

When I initially wrote the post 20 years ago (!) I looked it up online.  According to dreammoods.com, seeing a clogged toilet in your dream signifies that you are holding in and keeping your feelings to yourself. Your emotions have been pent up too long. To see an overflowing toilet in your dream denotes your desires to fully express your emotions.

This sounds right to me. Each time I have blogged about it the dream has precipitated a renewed interest in blogging. Perhaps a desire to express my emotions? Here they are: I hate Trump. The things he does make me sad. People who allow it and think it's ok disgust me. I am disappointed in this country and many of the people I know—like, for example, John Curtis. I know him and would say that we are friends. I truly believed he would do what's right and not just do things to hold on to power.  He isn't.  And while I encourage you to make calls and be activists in any way you can think of, currently I feel like that stuff won't make a difference. I am sorry to say that and I hope I get over it (I bet I will). 

Until then, my contribution will just have to be that the search terms "clogged toilets," and "pantyhose all day stink" will be forever linked on the internet to "John Curtis political legacy."